Random Thoughts

I am sitting in the education department lab at my school. I have a slew of homework at home that is waiting to be done. But it's not here. I came in early for a training session for the tutoring I do. However, due to some unforeseen circumstances, the woman who was to run the session couldn't make it. So, with three hours till my next class, here I sit. I printed some articles to read, but there's only so much reading of academic articles you can do in one day before the lines of the articles cross, and you are thoroughly confused as to what you are reading. I won't even claim to be comprehending. So I'll write. About what? I don't know. Whatever comes to mind I suppose.

I was reading my devotions this morning, and I came across this, "I need to be reminded frequently that my demerits do not compel God to withdraw His grace from me, but rather He treats me with no regard whatsoever to what I deserve. I'd much rather stake my hope of His blessing on His infinite goodness then on my good works." I feel like it is so easy to slump into feeling like we are incapable of doing any good. Everything we do is wrong. And, while we know the grace of God, we don't act in that knowledge. Instead of rejoicing in His grace, we wallow in self pity and self depreciation. How much better would it be to simply acknowledge or failings and and say "but I know the grace of my God."

Also, I loved the last part of the quote above, "I'd much rather stake my hope of His blessing on His infinite goodness then on my good works." Christians argue all the time on whether God chose or "elected" those who would be saved or if humans have free will and make the choice to follow God. While I won't go as far as to say that I think this is a stupid thing to be arguing over, I do believe that Christians spend too much time arguing over it. And for what? I believe in election. But even if I didn't, how hard would it be to accept that some people would rather rely on their salvation to be an act of God than to involve any action on their part. I know me. I like rules because I like structure. But I also don't always like rules that someone else is writing. If it was solely up to me in my sinful nature to choose salvation, I wouldn't have done it. My salvation is an act of grace not an act of my will. But, if you don't agree with me, I don't think that means you're going to burn in hell. So why fight?

Anyway, I'm not quite sure how I got here. But in other news, the last frames I need to finish my room are coming today!!! Oh, and my laptop is coming back from California!!! Yay! :D

Keep on singing,

A Letter to Pink

Dear Pink,

Normally, I love you. And although I've outgrown my need to decorate with you, I still love to accessorize with you. From my pink laptop, kindle case, and notebooks to my pink afghan, pretty pink tops, and the tiny hint of pink in my china pattern, you will always be my favorite. But I'm afraid that in this month, February, I find you more of a foe than friend. You and your compatriot red have come to symbolize all that is wrong with this world's view of love and the worst holiday ever invented - Valentine's Day. So I'm afraid that for the next month you and I will distance ourselves, especially on the 14th. I look forward to renewing our friendship in March.

Until then,
Sincerely,
Me.

Keep on singing,

Confession

Confession: I'm 19 and I still love children's books.

There's just nothing better. Last year my college class took a fieldtrip to the Scholastic store in SoHo. Can I just say, amazing!

It was there that I found my all-time favorite children's book, Harold and the Purple Crayon.



Who can resist this gem of a book! Seriously, if I ever get to have kids they're all getting a purple crayon with which they can draw magical worlds and purple moons.

Then in January, I purchased 3 more children's books. But, in my defense, I bought them with Christmas money and the knowledge that I got extra work hours the past two weeks!

One of those books was It's a Book by Lane Smith. It's a great little book about, you guessed it, books. In this digital age, I sometimes fear that children won't know what books are before long. This makes me sad. Maybe that's why I'm stocking up my children's library now :)


Keep on singing,

In Which I Question the Validity of Groundhog Day

My parent's are still away. But today I only had to wake up at 6:45. And as I sat on the couch around 7:00, with my cup of coffee in my hand, I thought three things. 1 - I thought about how just yesterday, I was thinking that the idea of being the Proverbs 31 woman who "rises while it is yet night" was seeming far less daunting then ever before. But now I realize that the 6:30 darkness of yesterday probably had more to do with the weather then I thought. I wasn't so dark this morning at 6:45, and I'll I wanted to do was crawl under the covers and go back to sleep. So much for my inspiring thoughts on Biblical womanhood. 2 - I thought about how much I still love casseroles. They just make life easier, especially when there's only two people eating it so it lasts for at least two days. 3 - I thought that being an adult doesn't mean no more sleepovers with your best friend. It just means that you and your best friend confess to each other a few days before said sleepover that you're going to have to take some hours out of your hang out time on Saturday to do homework.

This is my reality. Yesterday was snow day number three. And when I got the official cancellation email from my professor, I suddenly wished we just had class. So. Much. Homework.

So, while I still can't believe it's February 2011, I really wish it was February 2013 . . .

In other news, Staten Island Chuck did not see his shadow so supposedly spring will come six weeks early. My question is, how accurate can this system be when the groundhog doesn't see his shadow because the sky is all cloudy with an ice storm!!!

Keep on singing,

February . . . Say What?

My parent's are away this week. That means I woke up at 6:15 this morning to make my brother breakfast. And as I sat on the couch around 6:30, with the breakfast casserole in the oven, I thought three things. 1 - I thought about how when I was little, I cringed at the thought of the Proverbs 31 woman who "rises while it is yet night." Who would want to wake up when it's still dark?? But now I realize that 6:30 really isn't so very early. And it was really dark at 6:30 this morning. 2 - I thought about how much I love casseroles. They just make life easier. 3 - I thought, goodness gracious, it's February!!!!!!

I can' believe it. It seems just yesterday I was anxiously awaiting Thanksgiving! I mean, I had a wonderful winter break. Yes, it was busy, but I loved it! But I still can't believe it's over. I'm a junior in college. When did that happen??? Though I shouldn't complain because today may very well be my third snow day of the semester.

And, while I can't believe it's February 2011, I kind of wish it was February 2013 . . .

Keep on singing,